I need and want to...Help me!

I need to learn to understand each person's personalities, why they are like this and like that.

I need to learn to practice patience to my coleagues.

I need to make people see that I am also a person who can be hurt by their words.

I need to see a psychiatries, maybe I am really the person to blame for their misfortunes.

I want to be able to tell on a persons face to shut up....you're really hurting me..

I need to stand up on my own and be assertive.

I need to tell them about my feelings and plans in the future so that they will not be shock.

If only I can do this immediately!!!

Resign and stay at home and take care of my child and parents.

Be financially independent.

Be healed from my heart ailments.

Be free from all the heartaches and pain.

Please Help me!!! I need to understand that I am still living and I still have to endure and surpass all these pains!!!